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I bought some new vitamins at Wally World a few weeks ago. My normal multi-vitamin wasn’t in stock, so I bought some vitamins that promised that they were comparable to diet supplements that work, in that they helped to control appetite and burn fat. Hey, fine by me. The only thing that I have to do is take them in the morning with my head meds, as they’ve got caffeine in them. I certainly don’t want to be taking them at night…I have enough trouble sleeping as it is!!
I’m stuffed to the gills. Hubby had to go out and get cat food earlier, since we were all out. He stopped at Burger King on the way home, and even the best weight loss pills in the world can’t counter the effects of one of their BK Triple Stackers! Nom nom nom! Speaking of pills, I swear, I think I may have taken enough painkillers today to knock a horse unconscious. Has the pain gone away? Of course not. Are my knuckles still swollen? Of course they are. I hate my damn body sometimes.
All the stress I’m under is making me break out like crazy again. Every morning, I wake up and look in the mirror, only to find another red spot has popped up on my face. Even the new adult acne treatments that I’ve been trying aren’t working. This awful heat and humidity doesn’t help my skin, either. I’m constantly sweating, as I’ve become super-sensitive to the heat. Work is a nightmare because the air conditioning can’t keep up with the heat, thanks to our suite having all windows for most of the outside walls. I hate summer. I hate heat. And I REALLY hate what it does to my skin!!
Exhausted. Thoughts scattered, like leaves on the sidewalk. I’m losing track of the days again. Body aching, thanks to uncomfortable chair at work. Desperately need new office furniture. Joints swollen, thanks to the humidity. Can’t sit down on the couch, or I pass out from exhaustion. Sick and tired of people that can’t take instructions and ask stupid questions. Apartment trashed. Cats out of dry food. Car needs a new oxygen sensor. Finances all screwed up. Hubby working major overtime. Piles of laundry to do. Not enough hours in the day. Too many things needing to be done. Time, fleeting. Minute, hours, days tick by at the drop of a hat. But occasionally, time stands still. That perfect moment, that one word, that touch, that glance. For the briefest of moments, everything is forgotten. Makes everything better.
I’ve been up since 7:30 AM. This is after going to bed around 3:30, along with being drunker than shit. Oops. Car’s been dropped off. They’ve called me already…supposedly, it’s just the oxygen sensor. That’ll be $325 that I just don’t have to fix it. I have to talk to the ex about it, and call my personal mechanic to see how much they would charge to fix it. If it is indeed just the oxygen sensor, I’m relieved. Still nervous about what could happen in the future, but for now, I’ll take what little bits I can get. It’s raining here today, and my arthritis is acting up something fierce. I’ve been in pain since the moment I rolled out of bed, and none of the medications I’ve taken have given me any sort of joint pain relief. As much as I’m glad that it’s raining and the temperature’s dropped, I’m hating the fact that I am in joint pain HELL right now.
I feel like I’ve been punched in the face. This week hasn’t been all that bad, honestly…the issue that I had with my one friend earlier in the week was resolved peacefully and without me tearing him a new asshole. He’s lucky I didn’t tear him apart for jumping to conclusions that he shouldn’t have jumped on in the first place. Work’s been so-so. Busy one day, dead the next. Damn summer slowdown kills me. Thank gawd hubby’s company has overtime like WHOA, so the bills will still get paid, although money is VERY tight right now. I have dark circles under my eyes from staying up way too late. I don’t think I’ve made it to bed before 2 AM at all any time during the past two weeks. I’ve been gaming hardcore lately…so much so that I had to buy a new 1.5TB hard drive last weekend. Of course, that means I have to crack open the beast and attempt to install it. Joy. Then there’s the REALLY bad stuff…. A few weeks ago, my check engine light came on. I really didn’t think much of it, as the car’s been running well. Unfortunately, after a lot of research, well…it’s probably the transmission. AGAIN. I’m dropping her off at Aamco tomorrow, and crossing my fingers that it’s just the solenoid in the torque converter that needs to be replaced. Because if it isn’t, and the transmission is going, I’m screwed. In more ways than one.
People never cease to amaze me. I don’t know why that is…you’d think I’d be used to it by now. I’m continually let down by people that I consider good friends, and it still astounds me that shit like this happens. It shouldn’t surprise me, but unfortunately, things like this still do take me aback and take the wind out of my sails. Something happened today with a close friend while I was at work, and I spent the remainder of my day at my desk, heartbroken and let down once again. I really hope he’s checked up on funeral costs, because once I’m through saying my piece tonight when I catch him online, he’s going to wish he were six feet under. I don’t know. Maybe I just need to stop seeing the good in people. Jaded? Yes. Bitter? Most definitely.
Damn. As if there wasn’t enough going on in my life to just piss me off. Hubby bought me an eternity band for Christmas a few years back. It’s absolutely beautiful. 14kt gold and a lot of princess-cut diamonds that go all the way around the band. It sits perfectly under my wedding band on my finger, and I adore it, as it was EXACTLY what I wanted. I took off all of my rings before I took a shower tonight, and I laid all of them on my desk. When I went to put them back on, the eternity band was missing. I searched all over the place, including the trash can, but it’s nowhere to be found. *sigh* I know it’s not lost…it’s gotta be somewhere in this room. But just the fact that I can’t find it really sets my teeth on edge. *grumble* |
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